I will wait and in my waiting I will be glad. 

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Hosea 12:6 – Therefore, return to your God, Observe kindness and justice, And wait for your God continually.

What is your heart attitude when God tells you to wait? I’m going to be real, mine isn’t pleasant. Patience isn’t a gift of mine, its something I have been really challenged to work on.

I feel like my life has been one big season of waiting, especially in these past few months. As many of you know Gideon and I have submitted all the paper work for our finance visa. God has called me back to live in Nebraska and settle down with the love of my life. An absolute blessing that I struggle to wrap my head around at times. This process can take up to 9 months, we are believing for a shorter time frame. But for now we wait.

Psalm 27:14 – Wait for the LORD; Be strong and let your heart take courage; Yes, wait for the LORD.

The closer I get to God and the more time I spend with him I understand now that there is preparation that needs to be done before I embark on the GREATEST adventure ever. I’m not going to lie, long distance sucks, ALOT. But God is taking us on a journey of trusting him in a way we both haven’t before.

I’ve recently had a radical heart realisation that in my waiting God is choosing me, pursuing me and loving me. In my waiting he wants to know me. I can’t tell you how much he is calling me to surrender, trust and give my all to him in this season. I feel like my heart is becoming so aligned with his plan and his will in the unknowns that it’s making it okay and bearable to conquer each day. My waiting isn’t wasted, my waiting is a blessing.

About a month ago I started a study by the daily grace co. called ‘walking the path of wisdom’. It’s a study on proverbs. I am learning to be a God-fearing woman of Christ and I flipping LOVE it.

The other night I opened up to the chapter of marriage. As the words danced across the page, shedding light into my heart I began to weep. In that moment, I felt honoured, so ridiculously honoured that God called me for such a time as this to be a wife to my sweet Gideon. I am learning what it looks like to be a proverbs 31 woman as well as the importance of the role of a wife and through that I am confronted and challenged in the most beautiful way possible.

How amazing that God is taking this precious time before I leave for America to prepare me to be the best version of myself in him for Gideon.

Proverbs 31:10 -11 Who can find a wife of noble character? She is far more precious than jewels. The heart of her husband trusts in her, and he will not lack anything good.

I don’t know if you are facing a season of waiting but if you are, I challenge you to change your perspective and find the lesson God is trying to teach you. Ultimately, he knows best. He’s planned out your whole life and he has the power to turn your situation around, he is a way maker and a God of abounding grace. Let him invade your heart and rest in this beautiful promise Isaiah 60:22 – …At the right time, I, the LORD, will make it happen.

Beth xx

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Travel, often.

Psalm 96:11-12 – Let the heavens be glad, and the earth rejoice!
Let the sea and everything in it shout his praise!
Let the fields and their crops burst out with joy!
Let the trees of the forest sing for joy

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Estes Park, Colorado, USA.

Travel is the freedom you get when your soul collides with every new and exciting experience. It’s the rush of the unknown, living completely in the moment entangled with a carefree spirit to explore the varsity of the most beautiful earth. 

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The Grand Canyon, Arizona, USA.

It gives me a sense of knowing my God in a whole new way, it opens my mind to a perspective that isn’t clouded with fog. One that is free to dance in grace. His creation gives my soul rest, puts my heart at ease and allows me to marvel at the work he has done. 

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Sometimes, God calls you to other places, out of your comfort zone to teach you, stretch you and grow you in a way he can’t in your familiar. He allows you to make memories that will be etched into your heart forever. 

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Santa Monica Pier, CA.

Travel opens up the opportunity for every person to feel the sense of child-like wonder again. You aren’t bound by anything, you are free to roam in the places your heart desires, you a free to create, you are free to experience, you are free to be present, you are free to live. 

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Seal Rocks, NSW, Australia.

Travel pushes you into a beautiful place of uncertainty,in-stability and spontaneity. It allows you the chance to breathe and explore out of comfort facets just for a small season of your life. God has given us an extraordinary earth to explore his wonder and I don’t believe for a second that we are called to say in one place for the rest of our lives. 

Life is too short to stay in one place. Travel as far and wide as possible. Let your heart wander and your mind hope for the unknown. Leave familiarity behind and let yourself explore the extraordinary. Acquire something new from every place and don’t forget to leave something good behind. Wherever you choose to go, go with all your heart. Don’t look back, just go.

Sunday morning thoughts – 22.04.18

Beth xx

Beautifully Blessed.

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Have you ever had those really dry seasons in your life? When nothing seems to be happening and your just at a stand still hoping and praying that God’s plan would just hurry up and unfold… Then all of a sudden out of the blue your life erupts with bursts of wonder and not-so-wonder everywhere like a party popper. Streams of all different colours flying at you and around you – overlapping, intertwining and painting your life like an abstract piece of art.

I FEEL YOU! 

I want to give you a little insight into my little party popper painted world now.

The month of February was a flipping whirlwind to say the least. A beautiful, hard and unexpected whirlwind. God really spoke, taught and instilled in me that my plan is not his plan.

  • I vowed last year that I would never go back to pre-school teaching. I was done, I lost my passion, my drive and my motivation. Yet here I am, working 5 days a week in the most beautiful pre-school, with incredible little loves. I am being so blessed every single day, I am honoured that I get to sow into, invest and love on these precious children for this season of my life. God has given me a purpose and is supporting me financially. God is good, He is in control.

Matthew 6:26 – Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they?

  • I have had extreme pain in my tail bone for months. It was time I faced my fear and got an X-ray to find out what was going on. I got a call back from the doctor saying they found a lump on my pelvis and requested a CT scan for further investigation. If you know me well you know that after my dad passed away I HATE taking medication and sickness is my biggest fear. I had an unknown ahead of me and if I am being honest my worst nightmare was beginning to unfold. My results came back and it is a calcified lyphnode from when I had previous surgery. Benign in appearance. God is good, he is in control.

Nehemiah 8:10 … for the joy of the Lord is your strength!”

  • I have found a healthy relationship with exercise. It has been a beautiful outlet and time of reflection for me. I do it because I enjoy it, not because I am forcing myself to loose weight. I am finally content with my body, even if I am a little bigger than I used to be. God is good, he is in control.

1 Corinthians 6:19 – Do you not know that your bodies are temples of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God? You are not your own.

  • I am trying my best to find some sort of balance without Gideon. Long distance sucks. It really does. Our time is so limited yet so special and so beautiful. God is good, he is in control.

1 Corinthians 13:4-7 –  Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

  • I am learning who and what is important in my life. I have been really challenged by the Lord about friendships, family and myself. God is good, he is in control.

Proverbs 27:17 – As iron sharpens iron, so a friend sharpens a friend.

  • I continue to look at the visa process. I often feel defeated because we still aren’t through with the paper work and every time we go to submit our application we find something else that needs to be filled out. I am forever looking into timelines and dates but tonight I had the most peaceful thought. Our visa isn’t in the hands of the government, it’s in the hands of God and in his perfect timing Gideon and I will be able to get married. He is good, he is in control.

Ecclesiastes 3:11 – He has made everything beautiful in its time.

I share this little chunk of my life with you because I have been on such a journey this past month and I have grown in such a deep and intimate relationship with my Saviour. What I am experiencing with him is unexplainable. I longed so desperately to feel him the way I did when I was in America. I didn’t think it was possible to feel that bond or connection again but it is and it’s better. It’s all because I am surrendering my way and simply trusting his. He has given me no other option but to trust him and I love that. Have you ever thought that maybe your hurt and heart ache is just God wanting to draw closer to you? Is that not the most beautiful, precious and wonderful thought ever! The God who created the world and everything in it wants you. He wants you. He longs for you to come into his arms as you are and rest in his perfect, pure love. Through everything he is in control. He knows. He cares. He has a plan. He is fighting for you on your behalf.

I am forever learning the art of seasons. Sometimes you bloom where you are planted, other times you might feel bare and barren or crisp and fresh, filled with clarity. Maybe the wind is taking you somewhere new. Maybe you are transitioning and you can’t see the end of the old and the beginning of the new. Wherever you are at I want to challenge you to be transformed by the renewing of your mind. The bible talks about the importance of our thoughts, holding them close and keeping them captive. Where your thoughts are, your actions follow. Choose to see the blessing. Choose to see the good, the good that God is doing in your life, the thing you thought was impossible. When you change your thoughts you change your world. Embrace your current season with open arms and trust that God knows what he is doing. He has nothing but greatness for you, he has the most spectacular plan, watch it unravel before you. Give him glory and honour and you will reap every blessing predestined for you. Choose to let him invade your heart, I promise he will take you on the most beautiful, challenging and captivating journey of your life.

Always find your blessing, you are surrounded by constant wonder in this vast, wide, enthralling world.

Beth xx

 

 

You are altogether beautiful, my love.

1 Corinthians 15:10 – “By the grace of God, I am what I am.” (NIV)

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It has been so long since I have actually sat down at my computer with my worship music playing, spilling my heart out and sharing the goodness of my God. Let me tell you, I’m one sentence in and I’m already feeling free.

This time last year I went through something that changed me. I haven’t had the courage to share about that experience in-depth, until now!

Peak experiences – It’s a time in your life when you aren’t transitioning, you aren’t waiting, you are just right where you are meant to be. 

At the end of 2016 I was living, embracing and walking out my peak experience like there was no tomorrow. I was content in my friendships, my job, my family, in myself… So I thought.

I began to focus on my health a little more than normal. I have always struggled with body image. I started out with a healthy routine, going to the gym a few times a week & cleaning up my diet but before I knew it, all of a sudden I was stuck in this vicious cycle of over exercising and restricting the foods I was consuming. It just happened and I couldn’t seem to gain control over the matter. All I was focussed on was loosing wight. I was fixated on a stupid, pointless number. I thought it would make me a better person, I thought it would make me feel beautiful, I thought it would make me feel worthy. I Believed the lies that every woman believes – “If you look a certain way you’ll be happy” “If you weigh this much, people will like you more”. I used to get angry, literally angry at myself if I didn’t workout or if I ate carbs. I lost my period, the very thing that makes you a women. My body was failing. I felt like I was failing. The enemy tainted my vision and I saw exactly what he wanted me to see, I was right where he wanted me.

During this time, I had my faith but I chose to listen to the world over my God. It breaks my heart to write that but I did. This season of my life was real, it turned horrible but it taught me ALOT.  I got a head of myself and I took God’s blessings for granted and as a result of that the bad got the better of me.

It wasn’t until I ran back into my Saviours arms – broken, lost, insecure and ready to be made whole in his presence again that my world began to turn around. It felt like my heart was rooted in the ground but it was covered in weeds and as soon as I fell at his feet, flowers started to bloom again.

Zephaniah 3:17 – The LORD your God is with you, the Mighty Warrior who saves. He will take great delight in you; in his love he will no longer rebuke you, but will rejoice over you with singing. (NIV)

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Last year in Hawaii, for the first time ever I saw myself the way God see’s me. I don’t know if you’ve ever had a moment like that but it was the most beautiful, liberating and empowering moment of my life. It’s not something I can put into words because it was such a sacred moment between My incredible Jesus and myself. I still have days when I am insecure but because I am clinging to God and resting in his promises I have better control over those feelings.

Beautiful one, You are not defined by a number on a scale, you are not defined by how many friends you have or what you look like. You are made new and whole in a God that adores you, longs for you and see’s you as nothing less than perfect. You are made fearfully and wonderfully. You are more precious than rubies. Never feel like you are too broken to come to him, he wants you as you are. He is a God that can pick up the shattered pieces of your Story and make a masterpiece out of them. He is ready to shape you and mould you into the beautiful being he has predestined you to be. There is so much more to his plan than your outward appearance, let him free you of the negative thoughts that run wild in your head, allow his grace to fill your heart and soul so you can rest knowing how much he loves you.

Beth xx

 

Heart Photo: Pinterest.

A Thankful Heart, Dear.

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It has recently been thanks giving over in America and it really got me inspired me to write all around thankfulness. Funnily enough, it’s exactly what the Lord has been pressing on my heart to do more of lately.

Psalm 36:1 “Give thanks to the Lord, for he is good. His love endures forever.”

I am a very happy, energetic and confident person. I have always been someone who chooses optimism and positivity first but if I am honest, the last few months have felt SO opposite to that and it’s been so conflicting. It’s like I  was constantly churned up and every time something wonderful happened I would feel this tug on my heart and this unexplainable sadness filled the pit of my soul.

I have been in this constant up hill climb and I haven’t been able to see the top. I wrote in my last post about my gratitude for my friend Tess. I spoke about how I started to feel like myself again, for the first time in months.

Do you want to know why I started to feel like myself again?… Because the Lord invaded my heart and refilled my spirit with Thankfulness.

We are called to be Thankful in all circumstances of our lives. When we Praise and give thanks to our incredible Jesus we are ridding ourselves of the very thing the devil is trying to hold us down with. When we give Thanks, we receive blessing. When we choose to focus on the good things, we actually reap the benefit of the blessing by just feeling full again.

There is nothing more beautiful than the feeling of pure, genuine thankfulness. Our God wants us to live a life full of abundance and relentless Joy. He wants us to recognise his work and Praise him for everything.

1 Thessalonians 5:16-18 – Rejoice always, pray continually, give thanks in all circumstances; for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus.

I look at Characters of the bible like, Job, David and Paul. God – honouring men who poured their heart and souls to God with Thankfulness. They were faced with awful circumstances yet still they were able to walk out their day covered in crazy, unexplainable peace, simply because they were Thankful. 

My prayer for you is to always have a Thankful heart, that no matter what you are facing, you choose God and you trust wholeheartedly that you belong to him, the King of the world.

My Challenge for you is to count your blessings. As you wake up instead of scrolling aimlessly on social media, spend time in the presence of God and Thank him for all the wonder and beauty in your life.

What are you thankful for?

How has God moved in your world?

When did he carry you out of that place you thought you were going to be stuck in forever?

Who has he placed in your life that has made a positive influence over you?

I can 100% promise you, you are going to be setting your day up for success when you start it like this.

Beth xx

Let’s A D V E N T U R E!

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Adventuring is in my blood, it makes me feel alive, it sets my heart on fire to the wild pursuit of exploring the unknown and delving deeper into the beauty and wonder of this vast world.

On Monday I found myself overly excited because my beautiful friend Tess asked me to go on an adventure with her. We had no direction or intention for the day, we were just free to roam where ever our hearts desired. We ended up in Newcastle, NSW, where we wandered upon a magical little mermaid hole just off the shore line. It was surrounded by the roaring ocean and a multitude of cliff face, textured and patterned so intricately. Beneath us was a whole new world of creatures, coral, seaweed and living organisms.

As we sat in the stillness of creation I felt myself feeling whole again. You see, over these last few months I have wanted to be alone. In that time my anxiety began to cripple me again and I found that dreaming became scarce. I stopped doing the things I loved. I stopped adventuring. I spent that time praying + seeking but I just found myself going around and around in circles.

God places different people in your life at the most perfect of times. I met Tess 5 years ago and she has been one of my most treasured friends ever since. Whether she knows it or not God used her in the most tremendous way this week.

Because of her asking a simple little question, my heart genuinely bubbled up with pure joy + excitement. A feeling I haven’t felt since America.

When I am given the opportunity to explore I feel the rush and adrenalin of adventure as well as the peace and stillness of my soul. When I am out in nature I find myself connecting to my creator in such a beautiful way. I am able to embrace and immerse myself fully in the wonder I’m forever marvelling at.

Please don’t ever stop doing things that bring you joy. Don’t let anxiety and painful thoughts hold you back from the beautiful opportunities that await you! The enemy is here to steal, kill and destroy, especially when you are on the verge of greatness! Don’t let him rob you of your joy, your gifts, your talents or your dreams. You have a God that loves & adores you. He has overcome the world and he is ready to take you on an adventure and invade your heart in the most indescribable way. All you have to do is trust and be completely open to his will.

Beth xx

I Surrender.

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Story time!

2017 takes the cake for the most change I have ever experienced in such a short amount of time. Around February/March the Lord told me to quit my job. A career I had studied for and worked hard at for 3 years. I had no fall back plan, nothing. Just like Abraham, he told me to get up and move. It was one of the most incredible testaments to my personal faith I have ever experienced. During this time God was also preparing me to serve at camp Sonshine – Nebraska, U.S.A, Where my life changed dramatically in the most indescribable way.

I have been seeking God about what my next big move is going to be since I quit my job 9 months ago. I found the first few months of my waiting season amazing. I was able to do things that I always desired to do but after every high comes a low. I came home from my trip from America and felt instantly lost, direction-less and purpose-less from the moment I landed back in Australia. My waiting season became quite tough and the dark days much outweighed the light ones.

Psalm 27:14 – Wait for the LORD; be strong and take heart and wait for the LORD.

The Lord gave me very, very clear instructions of what he wanted me to do when I got home. He wanted me to rest. But me being me, I allowed my anxiety to get the better of me and I started to plan out what I thought would be best for my life and what would be best for the future. We all know that works… NOT! I burnt myself out to the point of being physically sick. So, began doctors appointments and further tests to find out what was going on with my body. God literally didn’t give me an option of being able to do anything, he forced me to rest.

You would think that would have been a pretty clear indication for me to stop, wouldn’t you? After putting my health at risk I still tried to continue to do things in my own strength.

I hit an extremely low point the other week. I had an anxiety attack and I just went through a stage of pushing everyone away. I preferred to be alone. In my ‘alone’ I was constantly reminded of a conversation I had with my beautiful friend Sarah. She was in a season of transition and she said: “Beth, I am trusting God with everything, I am completely giving my life to him and I have never felt better.” I finally waved my flag and I surrendered. I surrendered.

Lessons Learnt!

I have always been pretty blessed in the sense of not having to spend long periods of time waiting for an answer from God. Everything has always been a fairly quick process. So when I came up against something new like this I instantly thought taking matters into my own hands would speed the process up.

  • Don’t rush a head of God’s plan! It tells us in Jeremiah 29:11…

For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. (NIV)

Before we were even born God numbered our days and planned out our lives. He knows what’s going to happen today, tomorrow and 5 years from now. All we need to do is trust him through it. When we rush ahead of the wonder he has for us we can miss it and make a mess in the process.

  • Count your blessings in the waiting! 

Ephesians 3:20 – God can do anything, you know—far more than you could ever imagine or guess or request in your wildest dreams! (MSG)

It was coming to the end of camp when this verse popped up for the first time. That was over 3 months ago now. I have received this verse at least once a week since then. God kept telling me he was going to do something amazing and I was getting so excited and looking so far into the future that I missed was he was doing in the process.

I was so fixated on the outcome of my wait that I didn’t even pay full attention to the fact that he had already begun doing anything beyond my wildest dreams. I was missing all these beautiful blessings he had already poured out on me. I have realised the things he does in the wait is preparation for what he has next. Don’t miss it like I did.

*Everything thing has purpose and plays a part in his divine plan for you, regardless if you understand or you can see it or not.  

  • Stop doing it on your own! 

Philippians 4:13 – I can do all this through him who gives me strength. (NIV)

I can’t even count how many times the bible talks about the strength of the Lord. Our God is good and he is faithful. He never leaves us or forsakes us. He freely, graciously and willingly gives us his strength. So, why do we constantly try to do things on our own? I spent months doing it on my own, fully aware of what I was doing yet still continued to do it. I can’t explain the complete freedom I am experiencing right now. All because I am allowing God to do what he intended. Since doing this I have also received incredible blessings and the Lord has placed new dreams and desires in my heart because I am at a place of understanding now.

This season has bought SO much growth already, its unbelievable.

  • What does God want you to do for him in the mean time? 

Because I spent so long focusing on what the end result of my wait was I completely forgot to be asking God what I can do for him in the meantime. The in-between stage is where all the growth and preparation happens. I should have been spending more of my time completely open to God’s will for my life and by doing that sooner I could have been used by him in amazing ways.

Closing thoughts!

If you are currently in a waiting season I want you to know you are not alone.

1 Peter 5:9 – Resist him, standing firm in the faith, because you know that the family of believers throughout the world is undergoing the same kind of sufferings.

Take this opportunity to rest in the Lord and his incredible promises for your life. I understand the daily struggle of waiting. As humans we can be really impatient and feel defeated because we think we know what is best for our lives but we don’t, God does. He has a perfect plan for you and he is going to take you to places you’ve never been before. All you need to do is trust the prosess! He’s got you!

Beth xx