This is One of my most treasured friends Courtney. I’ve known her since our early high school years. We met at youth and small group and from there our friendship grew. Courtney is incredible, humble and so loving. Our friendship is unique and I am SO proud of her and her journey of self love and self acceptance. Read her words of courage and embrace the beautiful girl she is.
Written at age 20.
- What is your idea of Beauty?
I think beauty is something that is all around us, found in places and people we would not expect or we don’t see in ourselves. I think beauty is shown differently through each human, thanks to God’s crazy, good imagination.
- Where do you place your worth?
From past experiences I often struggled with worth. I’m not quite sure when it changed but it had something to do with my relationship with God, He mended my heart and I found a love that was everlasting, embracing and whole.
Through my spiritual journey I found my worth along the way.
- What has been your biggest obstacle in your self worth journey?
Feeling unloved, unwanted or unneeded.
Under appreciating myself and who & how I’ve been made to be.
- What has been your greatest achievement in your self worth journey?
Pushing past the feeling of being unloved, unwanted and not needed. It took a while because for years I had something, someone pushing against it but once I was able to accept that it wasn’t my fault, that I was not these things because of something one person had done to me, it really have me a sense of freedom, self worth and self love.
- How do you view yourself today?
Lucky & able.
- What are 3 things you do to practice self love?
Exercising daily is one of my main ways of practicing self-love, it’s not something I do for others but purely for myself.Nourishing my body with foods I believe do so, despite what others say about it.I also spend time with myself; I journal, read, walk or listen to music. Spending time with myself allows me to a better me for whatever is ahead.
- If you could give advice to your younger self in regard to self worth and body image, what would it be?
You are who you are, and those things you dislike about yourself right now you will learn to love.
You’ll love the colour of your hair despite the torment,
You will appreciate your size no matter what the person standing next to you looks like and all the things running through you head you will overcome and be stronger for it.
Earlier this year I wrote out a whole bunch of solo adventures I wanted to do within the year of 2017 or in following years to come.
On Sunday the 12th of February I got myself up, out of bed, ready for a full day of adventuring on my own.
I normally HATE Sydney because of the rush and all the people, I feel like I can’t really breathe, But not this time. I set the pace and did exactly what I wanted. I didn’t really plan anything, I just explored where my eyes and heart were drawn. I’m all for spontaneous moments in life, It’s actually what I live for. I ventured firstly to The Art Gallery Of New south Wales. I walked in and felt instantly comfortable. I was taken back by the grand entrance and the calming, delicate atmosphere. I then caught a train to Circular Quay where the iconic Harbour Bridge and Opera House were, I felt liberated being a tourist in my own city! I then walked a bit further and found myself at the Museum of Contemporary art. My mind was blown, there were so many incredibly, beautiful creations and forms of expression. I took my moments to let it all sink in.
A lot of people may be reading this thinking who cares, you just went to Sydney by yourself for a day, people do that all the time. True, they do. But I don’t. This was a massive leap of faith and step outside of my comfort zone. For the longest time I found myself constantly relying on people, I wasn’t able to do things on my own because I was scared something would go wrong or I would get lost or hurt. It’s not a way to live. I walked away from Sydney different. My mind was different, my heart was different and there was shift within myself because I grew that day. Last year I made friends with someone who taught me that spending time with yourself is okay. When he explained that he preferred to do things on his own rather than with people it honestly shocked me to my core, I couldn’t understand the concept of wanting to do anything by myself but now after experiencing it, I know exactly what he means. I will be forever grateful and thankful for this little life lesson.
Here are some of my pictures from my day.
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I’m going to be starting a new photography project for my blog called unveiling beauty inspired by the book captivating!
My vision is to create a space where girls are able to feel comfortable to express themselves through their own individual self image, share their body image story and beauty back ground without fear of judgment! I’m all about being raw, real and authentic so it’s basically going to be the same series of questions to a different bunch of girls with how their self image journey has played out, along with some photos that highlight THEM in all their beauty. This is a project that’s been on my heart for a while now and to finally see it start to come to surface is beyond exciting for me!
It’s close to my heart because my entire teen years were filled with doubt, discouragement, hurt and emptiness in regards to my self image. I’m so damn passionate about this and I am going to try my very best to make a difference for the generations of women to come and also for the ones that have been! I want women to gain perspective of other girls body image journies. I want this space to be relatable, empowering and inspiring! I want them to know that they aren’t alone in their awful thoughts and that they can conquer feelings of doubt! Join me on this journey of self love and a movement of beauty!
“There is nothing more rare, nor more beautiful, than a woman being unapologetically herself; comfortable in her perfect imperfection. To me, that is the true essence of beauty.” – Steve Maraboli.