A Thankful Heart, Dear.

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It has recently been thanks giving over in America and it really got me inspired me to write all around thankfulness. Funnily enough, it’s exactly what the Lord has been pressing on my heart to do more of lately.

Psalm 36:1 “Give thanks to the Lord, for he is good. His love endures forever.”

I am a very happy, energetic and confident person. I have always been someone who chooses optimism and positivity first but if I am honest, the last few months have felt SO opposite to that and it’s been so conflicting. It’s like I  was constantly churned up and every time something wonderful happened I would feel this tug on my heart and this unexplainable sadness filled the pit of my soul.

I have been in this constant up hill climb and I haven’t been able to see the top. I wrote in my last post about my gratitude for my friend Tess. I spoke about how I started to feel like myself again, for the first time in months.

Do you want to know why I started to feel like myself again?… Because the Lord invaded my heart and refilled my spirit with Thankfulness.

We are called to be Thankful in all circumstances of our lives. When we Praise and give thanks to our incredible Jesus we are ridding ourselves of the very thing the devil is trying to hold us down with. When we give Thanks, we receive blessing. When we choose to focus on the good things, we actually reap the benefit of the blessing by just feeling full again.

There is nothing more beautiful than the feeling of pure, genuine thankfulness. Our God wants us to live a life full of abundance and relentless Joy. He wants us to recognise his work and Praise him for everything.

1 Thessalonians 5:16-18 – Rejoice always, pray continually, give thanks in all circumstances; for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus.

I look at Characters of the bible like, Job, David and Paul. God – honouring men who poured their heart and souls to God with Thankfulness. They were faced with awful circumstances yet still they were able to walk out their day covered in crazy, unexplainable peace, simply because they were Thankful. 

My prayer for you is to always have a Thankful heart, that no matter what you are facing, you choose God and you trust wholeheartedly that you belong to him, the King of the world.

My Challenge for you is to count your blessings. As you wake up instead of scrolling aimlessly on social media, spend time in the presence of God and Thank him for all the wonder and beauty in your life.

What are you thankful for?

How has God moved in your world?

When did he carry you out of that place you thought you were going to be stuck in forever?

Who has he placed in your life that has made a positive influence over you?

I can 100% promise you, you are going to be setting your day up for success when you start it like this.

Beth xx

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Let’s A D V E N T U R E!

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27.11.17.

Adventuring is in my blood, it makes me feel alive, it sets my heart on fire to the wild pursuit of exploring the unknown and delving deeper into the beauty and wonder of this vast world.

On Monday I found myself overly excited because my beautiful friend Tess asked me to go on an adventure with her. We had no direction or intention for the day, we were just free to roam where ever our hearts desired. We ended up in Newcastle, NSW, where we wandered upon a magical little mermaid hole just off the shore line. It was surrounded by the roaring ocean and a multitude of cliff face, textured and patterned so intricately. Beneath us was a whole new world of creatures, coral, seaweed and living organisms.

As we sat in the stillness of creation I felt myself feeling whole again. You see, over these last few months I have wanted to be alone. In that time my anxiety began to cripple me again and I found that dreaming became scarce. I stopped doing the things I loved. I stopped adventuring. I spent that time praying + seeking but I just found myself going around and around in circles.

God places different people in your life at the most perfect of times. I met Tess 5 years ago and she has been one of my most treasured friends ever since. Whether she knows it or not God used her in the most tremendous way this week.

Because of her asking a simple little question, my heart genuinely bubbled up with pure joy + excitement. A feeling I haven’t felt since America.

When I am given the opportunity to explore I feel the rush and adrenalin of adventure as well as the peace and stillness of my soul. When I am out in nature I find myself connecting to my creator in such a beautiful way. I am able to embrace and immerse myself fully in the wonder I’m forever marvelling at.

Please don’t ever stop doing things that bring you joy. Don’t let anxiety and painful thoughts hold you back from the beautiful opportunities that await you! The enemy is here to steal, kill and destroy, especially when you are on the verge of greatness! Don’t let him rob you of your joy, your gifts, your talents or your dreams. You have a God that loves & adores you. He has overcome the world and he is ready to take you on an adventure and invade your heart in the most indescribable way. All you have to do is trust and be completely open to his will.

Beth xx

Re-visiting my vision.

Processed with VSCO with a6 presetI have had my blog for about 2 years now and in that time I have learnt ALOT! I really feel that somewhere along the way my focus shifted in a negative way. I was looking more at what I could gain from my blog rather than how I could be completely glorifying God and serving others with my writing.

The Lord has been teaching me a lot this year about being more humble. He constantly reminds me “It’s not about you“.

2 Corinthians 1:3-4 says, “Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves receive from God”. 

This verse has always stood out to me. I am very real, raw and honest in my writing. That means I share a lot of really personal stuff that has happened in my life. God put this verse on my heart at a young age because he knew that one day he would call me to be a comforter and an encourager to others. I want my blog to be a safe place for people to feel open to talk about their troubles, I want to not only write and share my stories but actually connect and be there for people.

In 1 Timothy 4, it talks about our spiritual gifts and our individual gifting from God. I was watching a Youtuber talk about this particular part of the bible and what she was saying was… Imagine if everyone practiced and used their spiritual gifts to glorify God the way he intended. It really struck me and stopped me in my tracks because when I sat and really thought about it, imagine how much work God will do through us! We just have to let him.

My vision for this blog is to have a purpose for others, to inspire people, to encourage people and to push people through my writing, through my photography and through being creative in general. I write because it makes me feel free, because I am able to express myself and be honest with my feelings and if I can reach out, touch people and show them the love of God through doing something I am so ridiculously passionate about then I will be content.

Beth xx

 

Embrace YOUR Body!

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I have had a stirring in my heart to write about body positivity yet again. Surprise, surprise!

Earlier last week I was scrolling through my Instagram and I became quite irritated. The more I scrolled the fire bubbling up in my belly became stronger and stronger. I sat shaking my head, thinking how truly disgusting society can be.

These days, Instagram is full of Women in bikinis, diets, workout routines. You know how it goes… and for what?

Why are we so desperate to keep up with the next “in” trend of a body type. Do you understand how much that irks me? And how sad it is that A Woman’s body type has become a trend!!!!!

Think back a few years ago… What “body goals” were women trying to achieve? Petite bodies with a thigh gap.

What is it now? Small boobs to prance around in a little bralette, a tiny waste and a big butt.

I have been watching women work them selves to the ground just to achieve these results. What are they really going to gain from it though? Validation and acceptance of themselves because in societies standards they are “Beautiful”.

As women we should be spending more time in community, empowering each other to embrace OUR own individual body type.

As you know I am a Christian and I have grown up in church. I often come back to this bible verse. Psalm 139:14 – I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well.

In the Christian world it is such a well known/ used verse that it can become repetitive and easily overlooked. I am here to drill this verse into your being like there is no tomorrow. When you actually sit down and take this verse in, it’s life changing. YOU are fearfully and wonderfully made by the creator of the universe. He made you as an individual. You are your own person and you are the only person in the world with your exact body type. How do we not see that as the coolest thing ever and why the heck are we not embracing that more?

Recently, I have had an incredible awakening in my personal journey of body image and after a lot of prayer, seeking, crying and self hate I have experienced healing in a way that I never have before.

I am able to write of the body trends above because that was me not too long ago, trying to seek acceptance in all the wrong places from all the wrong people.

I was ashamed of my body, the way I looked and who I was as an individual. My journey has been very up and down. I have battled through issues and habits in regard to obsessive eating, exercising and fixating on numbers that I didn’t even realise was happening because it was so normal to me. I speak a lot more in depth about this in the book I am writing.

When I was in my mid teens I killed for “the dream body”. I wanted to be skinny, I wanted a thigh gap. I wish my 21 year old self was there to tell me that would never be achievable for me. Not in a harsh way but in a place of love. You see, that would never be achievable for me because that’s not my individual body type, that’s not how God created me. I am a curvy girl with thick thighs. I get that now, I accept that and FINALLY, I am embracing that.

Just the other week I was sitting down eating some food and my last bit of the meal fell into my lap because my thighs were touching. If I looked down and saw that about 6 months ago I would have been so ashamed of my body but you best believe I was praising the Lord for my thick thighs! I picked my food up and I finished that last bite with complete satisfaction.

Every body type IS beautiful.

If you have freckles, You’re beautiful.

If you have a thigh gap, You’re beautiful.

If you don’t have a thigh gap, you’re beautiful.

If you have a bit of a chubby belly, You’re beautiful. (I love choccy too much and I’m rocking it)

If you have a flat stomach, you’re beautiful.

If you are tall, you’re beautiful.

If you are short, you’re beautiful.

Self acceptance comes when you beat the mental battle the enemy is forever trying to win against you!

Wearing a skimpy little bikini that covers next to nothing just for you to gain a little bit of attention isn’t going to make you happy. The boy that just “liked” your last Insta picture isn’t going to make you happy. Posting a body photo when your sucking in your stomach to the point of struggling to breathe and sticking your butt out to make yourself look smaller isn’t going to make you happy. Can most of us just admit that we’ve been there at some stage?

I encourage you to try your very best to honour your body. It is so so precious. Looking back I wish I cared for and valued my self and my body as much as I do now. Embrace who you are and do things to nourish yourself the right and healthy way. Stop trying to seek the approval of others to validate your self acceptance and stop playing the comparison game. As soon as you start to compare yourself to others you are allowing complete negative thoughts to grow and that in itself is a really dangerous place to be in.

Your worth isn’t found in a number on the scales, it’s not defined by toxic words people say to you, it’s not placed by how many followers you have or how revealing your posts are, it’s not shaped by a false image we have been led to believe by societies standards. It is found in the very essence of your being – Your heart!

I know that I am no where near where I want to be but because I am finally starting to see myself the way Jesus see’s me and I am spending time filling myself with his truths about me, I have found contentment. It’s crazy, amazing and all things wonderful!

There is only one place you are going to find complete contentment and real self acceptance. Go search, I dare you!

Beth xx

I am Delighted in…

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Keep the word ‘delighted’ in your head and let me try my best to give you some insight of the value of this word in my life right now.

I have been a girl that has struggled with self worth and body image for most of my teen years and now into my early 20’s.. I thought this cycle of insecurity and discontentment in myself would have ended by now. I’ve written a bit about a few of my own personal stories in my self love journey in a place of coming out of negative thoughts about myself.

About 2 months ago I found my mind playing tricks on me again, I found myself listening to what the enemy thought of me and I believed it, more than ever this time.

I can honestly say, hand on heart I have never experienced self doubt like I have these last few months.

I know other women can relate when I say that I stood in the mirror and picked at every little thing on my body, I could see nothing good about me. The more I looked the more the enemy filled my mind with lies. There is no worse feeling than looking at yourself and just crying because you are so damn insecure of the person you are and feel nothing but worthless. I was caught in the trap of comparison. I just seemed to be in this rut and I didn’t know how to get out.

I had been back in Australia for a few weeks now from a 4 month trip to the states and I was still in this negative mind frame. I decided to take myself down to one of my favourite beaches and spend some solitude time with the Lord. I opened up to Psalm 139 – A beautiful chapter of poetry from the bible that speaks of all the goodness God sees in us. Normally, this would help me and ease my mind straight away but this time it didn’t.

I love that God knows me better than I know me because when I went to close my bible a highlighted verse popped up.

Zephaniah 3:17 – For the Lord your God is living among you.

He is a mighty saviour.

He will take DELIGHT in you with gladness.

With his love, he will calm your fears.

He will rejoice over you with joyful songs.

I was instantly taken back to week 5 at camp – Reboot.

One of the workshops we sat through was all about how the Lord delights in us.

I’m just going to re write that sentence because a lot of you would have just grazed over it… The KING of the universe, maker of EVERYTHING and EVERYONE takes DELIGHT IN US!

Some synonyms for the word delighted are:

  • Joyful.
  • Very pleased.
  • Ecstatic.
  • Happy.
  • Cloud 9.
  • Excited.

If that wasn’t the biggest slap in the face by God at the beach I don’t know what was. I was still in this proud state of mind while reading that verse because I knew it was God speaking to me but my brain was still believing the negative thoughts that were being fed to me.

I remember thinking why can’t I feel the way I did when I was sitting in that workshop almost 3 months ago now?

On the 3/7/17 I wrote in my journal.

I AM LOVED BY A KING WHO DIED TO KNOW ME.

You are my delight..

Every time I feel ashamed or down on myself I need to stop and ask God what he thinks of me. What is God proud of me for?

We were then given time to sit and listen to God and why he delights in us.

He spoke to me and said:

“I delight in you because…

You are courageous and you take risks.

Because you accept who you are.

Because you are loud and quirky.”

I then told my Saviour why I delighted in him.

I delight in God because..

He is my father.

He forgives.

His love is perfect.

He knows.

He is gentle.

He loves without question.

I am on a journey of self love and re learning to see myself the way Jesus sees me and I am determined to get back to the mind frame of where I was in week 5 of camp, except better.

I am not writing this blog for self pity, I’m writing it because I am the biggest advocate of self love and believing in who you are as a person but know that in different seasons of life come different challenges. Right now this is mine and it might be someone else’s too.

I want to encourage who ever is reading this blog that YOU are DELIGHTED in by a King. Who made you fearfully and wonderfully. He doesn’t make mistakes. He rejoices over you!!! God is Joyful for YOU, He is ecstatic for YOU, he is on cloud 9 for YOU and he is pleased with YOU.

I challenge you right now, Go and sit in a quiet place and write down 3 positive things about yourself. Embrace them and Embrace you!!!!!

By Bethany Calverley.

I’m no longer a victim to Anxiety, so why do I feel like this?

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It’s less than 2 weeks now until I leave for Nebraska but if I’m completely honest with you I have felt nothing but overwhelmed. I haven’t even really been able to talk to anyone about it because I instantly feel my eyes well up with tears and my head gets this massive cloud of fog over it.

– Why?

I’ve been battling with that stupid little word for the last month now. I’ve been battling with all these stupid negative feelings for the last month now too.

I hit a really low point last week and that low point was the BEST thing that’s happened in this last month, weird I know. Let me explain.

I was no longer a victim to anxiety, so why did I feel like this? Why was my chest tight, why was my heart so uneasy to the point of uncontrollable crying, why didn’t I want to see anyone, why couldn’t I get out of bed, why couldn’t I write? WHY? I’ve got two words for you – Spiritual warfare.

I messaged my best mate straight away and asked him to pray for me, I didn’t really go into too much detail, I just asked him to pray. He replied with “Of course! When things are going right the devil doesn’t want to lose you and will do anything he can to keep you from God”.

I then went on to read a quote that said “There are no short cuts to any place worth going”.

It clicked. everything clicked. Everything finally made sense. Just as much as God was fighting for me, so was the enemy. It was just the day before my low point happened that I was frustrated with God about my finances, I questioned him and said “Why is it costing me almost $3000 just to get to Nebraska? Why, when I’m an anxious flyer does it take 3 plane trips to get there?” and as stated in the quote above he answered.. There are no short cuts because this is part of my journey, because this place is going to be life changing and because it’s worth going. The summer camp I will be leading on isn’t just fun and games, their sole purpose is to encourage children in their walk with Christ, to get along side them and show them how loved and valued they are. God chose me to be a part of that. Of course the enemy is going to attack because God, him and I all know this is the start of my new beginning. When I really sit and think, if I am in this massive spiritual battle right now, I can’t even begin to imagine the crazy amazing experiences and moments I’m going to have over there and how God is going to use me and open up new doors for me.

It’s almost laughable what happened to me last week. That the enemy used my weakness of anxiety,  He made sure I wasn’t able to write which is the one thing that calms me most and my mum was on a trip 10 hours away so he tried to strike when I was alone. When really, I’m never alone because while he was doing all of that God actually stepped in and took me to this place of surrender, filled my heart with love and allowed my mind to be at peace for the first time in a month.

I can’t even begin to explain what I am feeling right now as I  write this but what I can tell you is to trust God. I have had too many crazy, unexplainable and wonderful things happen in my life and more so in these last 5 months that prove he is real and he is working in me. I will write and share every experience, lesson, triumph, low and heavy heart moment that I can for people to have the chance to connect with him.

Now, when people ask about Nebraska, I feel about 20% nervous and 80% excited beyond words because before I was born or breathed into existence this was part of my journey, this was a part of Gods plan for me and I know that following this through is going to bring so much happiness and a lot of life changing moments. For not only me but for others around me.

I feel blessed and nothing but honoured that God is giving me the opportunity to meet new people with the same love and same passion as me, that I get to see more of a new country and a new state and mostly, that I get to share the love of God with children because as I keep growing and my story keeps unfolding, I’m learning that’s exactly what I’ve been called to do.

By Bethany Calverley.

Do what makes you happy!

It’s currently 10:37 on a Wednesday morning and I’m sitting in a small little country town called Grafton while writing this.

I’m having the BIGGEST pinch me moment I’ve ever experienced.

At the very start of this year God has been talking to me all about change and speaking to me through anything, everything and everyone. It didn’t matter how or what form he spoke, it was as clear as day that change was in the making, it was coming. I waited with an eager and expectant heart to what it could be.

I guess I could say that since receiving all this exciting news about change I suddenly became very unsettled in my life as it was. I can’t really explain to you how this happened but there was a shift in my heart and from that moment everything in my life turned… I was coming into an AWFUL tradition period. From my Job, to my home life, to my friends… You name it and everything suddenly became different. I became so overwhelmed and didn’t know how to cope.

Normally, I am all for change. I’m the first person to embrace it with open arms. It’s easier said than done when your actually experiencing it for yourself though. These transition stages of life are crucial for our individual growth, they bring happiness, excitement and trust. I kind of like to view this as a life cycle of a butterfly.

We start out as a caterpillar, a cute little creature but pretty helpless in the nicest way possible. We then move onto the eating stage, when something is about to happen I know that I usually try to do anything possible just to help myself feel full and content again but a lot of the time we fill ourselves with the wrong things and it makes us feel even more lost than we already did. We then go into the most crucial stage of our journey – The cocoon. This IS the transition stage, this is where it all happens. We go through a season of dry, still and stuck – Literally. It’s a place of all things uncomfy and when your in it, it’s not enjoyable in the slightest. Suddenly, one day, it happens… You burst forth with wings into your new beginning, your new adventure. You are soaring to new heights and you are gaining a whole new perspective on your journey.

I knew this next step was going to be life changing, It was going to be my turning point. As the weeks went on I became less passionate about my job and more interested in other avenues. My faith was being strengthened. Throughout this period I have fallen more and more in love with my beautiful saviour and my relationship with him has gone to a whole new level. The only way I can try and explain how my love and faith has grown is that it does not matter what is going on around me, when I trust God my heart feels full. The good kind of full, when it’s a freezing cold winter night and you’ve just finished a mammoth baked dinner with your family and you’re belly is satisfied, it’s at resting stage because you’ve just nourished it in the best way possible. When I think of my relationship with Jesus I feel warm. My heart also feels excited. Think of those little party poppers you get out for birthdays. You sit with anticipation waiting to pull the string, you then pull it and theres an explosion but the joy keeps on coming because your graced with beautiful colours flying everywhere. Jesus is my baked dinner and my party popper.

My change has unfolded, not slowly though. It’s all happened quick, quick like a southerly on a boiling hot summers day. One moment everything is still the next a strong, uncontrollable wind comes. My southerly is taking me all the way to Nebraska to do an American summer camp as well as some solo travel afterwards. This journey has been so ridiculously God-led. There are so many little things that have happened along the way to make this journey of a life time fall into place at ease.

I planned to work up until I was going to leave for the States but God had other plans. He was telling me to move. I wasn’t happy in my job. I was unmotivated and became anxious to go to work. I’m a big believer of if you aren’t happy where you are or you aren’t happy what your doing, change it. The ball is in your court and your happiness is up to you.

After a lot of conversations, reading my bible, writing and praying I took a big leap of faith. God was telling me to quit my job, so I did. I QUIT MY JOB!!! I’ve never felt more empowered, scared, excited and liberated in my life. I had a shower thought and Matthew 6:25-34 came to my mind. This talks all about God providing for our every need. I was worried about my finances prior to receiving this verse. I kid you not 5 minutes after reading this I got a phone call from someone super close to my heart saying that God had been on their case for the last few weeks to give me a big chunk of money for my trip. I didn’t have time to worry about money because God already had it waiting for me.

Since quitting I’ve been travelling up the north coast of Australia visiting INCREDIBLE places, experiencing all things wonderful, meeting new friends, growing my relationship with Jesus even more and having the time of my life! This is what I want to be doing. I have received nothing but blessing after blessing since stepping out in faith and being obedient to him and what he wants for my life.

I really can’t stress how important it is to just do what makes you happy!!!!!!! Life is so short and in my opinion it needs to be experienced to the fullest.